Back At It Again!

As it is late at night and I am finally starting to get over my depression of losing my chapters of The Crystal Soul. It has taken me over a month to work up the courage to get back to writing once again.

Within the whole month of June, I didn’t want to write even though I wanted. Each time I was getting ready to write, I would stop and put my laptop up because I just didn’t want to face the fact that all my hard work was gone in a blink of an eye. The fear of it happening again was strong and I didn’t want to go through that again.

No matter how much I wanted to give up, my husband said that it was a waste for me to just give up like that. I had put in lot of hard work over 2 year going on 3 years get the book done. He noticed that I stopped going to writer’s group every Thursday, and tried to get me to start going again, but I kept making excuses on why I wasn’t doing, like just started working on the back office print work room. Or that I will work on it later.

It was only the other night that I realized I really wanted to work on what I had lost but I was still scared to do. Even with my DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) kept me from writing. I would have one that kept telling me that it was pointless and that is the main reason why I lost those chapters. I didn’t know what to do I wanted to write but didn’t know how to go about it. It was only then it was suggested that I should drink a glass of wine relax and then start writing what came into mind.

Taking that suggestion, opened up one of the many bottles of wine and started going through from the very beginning of my book chapter by chapter to make sure that my book is flowing the way that I want it to flow. So now I am officially back at it again with the hopes that I can get it done before August so that I can get to my editor and get it published before my big show in September.